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Saturday, May 28, 2011

song of the week


someday i'll be living in a big old city
and all you're ever gonna be is mean
someday i'll be big enough so you can't hit me
and all you're ever gonna be is mean

sile terase pada siapa2 yg terase tue, tapi jgn perasan pulak kalau bukan kamu ye :)

Friday, May 27, 2011

another prayer

due to recent events, and i feel so down and depressed that i don't have the encouragement to study:


Ya Allah, please let me FORGIVE others and let OTHERS forgive me. ameen~

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

mqa

today we finally got the recognition from MQA :)

Friday, May 20, 2011

jama and azmils joy

today at 6.32 pm:


JAMA AND AZMIL BECAME PROUD PARENTS OF A BABY GIRL WEIGHING 3.07kg!!!!

i am SOOOOO FREAAAKKIINNGGG happy!!!!

p/s: saye mahu baby sekarang..

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

tawakal

But if they turn away, Say: “Allah sufficeth me: there is no god but He: On Him is my trust,- He the Lord of the Throne (of Glory) Supreme!”-Surah Al-Taubah, ayat 129

Ya Allah, i leave my future in Your hands to give the best for me.


Monday, May 16, 2011

decisions

tonight is the last night to decide where we want to spend the next two years of our life as a houseman..recent turns of events, discussions, debates and information seeking has lead me to choose Hospital Tawau, although my seniors have been saying a lot of scary things. my heart however has not settled to this yet..i have istikharah for 2 days now without any meaning and i am going to try again tonite. please pray that i will tetapkan my hati and be satisfied with the decision because i don't want to lose 2 years of my life hating the place i work with the one i love.


Ya Allah, please guide me in choosing a place that will bring the best out of me.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

sincerely

went to the Hospital today, clerked a really sad patient.

was not sure whether she was schizophrenic or depressive.

since childhood-abused by grandmother and mother

16 years old-married to a soon to be abusive husband

20 years old-husband left her

25 years old-boyfriend sold her off to prostitution

28 years old-first admission for suicidal attempt

she has lead a sad life. i wish i could do anything to help her

Thursday, May 12, 2011

permudahkanlah

i had such a nice dinner that was full of laughter..


haven't had that much fun in quite some time..

it's a wonderful feeling..

i'm very sure..


metaphoric pulak banyak huhu..i've been adding a malay word to my doa, usually its in english..but i've been adding the words " permudahkanlah......" in my doa because i feel the english translation is kinda formal and this word is exactly how i want to describe what i want..plus roi said it to me once and it stuck in my mind ( still keep that sms )

" ya Allah, permudahkanlah jalan kami. please know that everything we do is for You. Please do not let us stray from the correct path and open the hearts of those who keep the doors shut for us. Know that it is time for us to take the next step, open the doors to him and let him be brave to approach our elders."

"ya Allah, forgive my sins, the sins of my family, teachers and those i love. Let all my batch members pass this final hurdle before becoming doctors. Please erase all feelings of laziness, and protect us from being overconfident. Ease the hearts of our examiners and let them be generous in giving us marks and overlook our mistakes. only You may help us"

ameen~

p/s: sudah isi borang penempatan?

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

blind

i loved you more than you would ever know

a part of me died when i let you go~

- i will see this post in a couple of years and still understand why i wrote this and to whom this post is for -

Monday, May 9, 2011

Mr A A A:
Seems like everybody’s in Batch 2006 wants to become a DR,I wonder how they sleep at night. When the EXAM comes first, And the RESULTS comes second,
Just stop, for a minute and Smile.....You have achieved your dream!


precious. totally precious.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

milestone

life starts after we pass our pro 3.


insya-allah

i just found new motivation, or actually motivation came to me finally!
huhu
insya-allah..keep praying ye?

:)

Monday, May 2, 2011

time to shut up?

this weekend is rated 8/10 because i spent it with my family and the ones i love.


on saturday we had a family brunch and then went to see wny at Hospital Ampang. she's going home today alhamdulillah after her WBC increased to 3.2 :) was supposed to teman mama to a kenduri arwah but got stuck in the jam.

on sunday spent the WHOLE day in midvalley with my family! we went shopping ( papa made mama really happy considering she doesn't prefer shopping, so wt he bought for her must be the cause of her bliss ) it was a 30th year anniversary present! we all got something as well, after that we all choose something sweet from M&S, had lunch at Dome and i stayed with Nads to do my hair. the hairdresser was like: ' sayang, kenapa tak jaga rambut' after looking at my freakishly long and stubborn hair and insisted that i do treatment as well. spent 300 on my hair! ( this is my first time ) because i had two treatments, and cut my hair to shoulder length. was treated like a princess in the private room :) but as usual, drama follows me around

one of the hairdryers blew up.
seriously.

the hairstylist got an ugly black mark on her hand, she was crying, i was trying to comfort her with half my hair wet and the other half puffy. it was a sorry sight, and i hope she's ok after one of her friends whisked her off to the clinic. the senior hairstylist Natasha was really professional, recommend it to everyone.

on monday, i went to Opahs for lunch. we had really nice food but aunty ina was not feeling well. we showed off our gifts to Opah which papa gave us and Opah gave me another gift! an heirloom that i am proud to have. it was my moyangs. it's always nice to have good food ( opahs a great cook ) and to be surrounded by my family.

the only downer is that i spent the night at the hospital and i now have a patient that was admitted since the 3rd of Jan. gile x?

lastly, i think i should stop talking about marriage to bugsy now. i'm beginning to freak him out, i hope he doesn't feel pressured coz my family keeps talking about it and i keep telling him. bt what can u expectkn when the whole family knows and the parents approve. yes, i am waiting ( i seem to do a lot of waiting when it comes to him ). he can't do anything about it now, and i should understand his situation ( especially after wt his mom said ). but as long as we both keep praying to Allah, the time will come. and i hope it is soon. it's just that i probably should find someone else to vent all this to, and not him because i don't need to hint it anymore, he has it blasted in his brain. aahhh, the hope that comes with knowing he is the right person is humongous.

as long as he wants it too, i'm happy.
i should really stop pestering him.
should stop talking bout marriage with him.


wait!
not stop
REDUCE. a lot.

can't make promises u can't keep eh?