belief

i've fought for what i believed was good for me since i was small:

1. when i was in standard 6, i wanted to go to TKC. my grandmother opposed the very idea of it because she said girl should grow up with their parents. i wrote a note to her and my parents weighing the pros and cons of why i should go. and alhamdulillah, i have never regretted it and my grandmother is proud of me.

2. when i was 18 years old, i told my mother i wanted to be a doctor. she asked me am i sure? she said it will need a lot of commitment, not only mine but our families. i said yes, and that i will never back out. she tried to convince me otherwise until we ended up fighting for a while, but i was adamant. i wanted to become a doctor and insyaallah i will achieve that dream and mama has said she has no regrets on letting be take my MBBS

3. now currently, what i want needs the support of another. but alas, i am not getting the support i need. i have been fighting to make it better, to rekindle whatever that was left in me. but today, i have decided no more. for once, let someone else fight and try to convince me. not with words, but with actions. and for once, i will expect nothing because i am tired, and because i know no matter how much i try and convince, it will have the same conclusion.