i have questions, after discussing about sexual education, though it's still very much a taboo in Malaysia:
Do u remember how u first learned about sex?
Are u comfortable talking about sex with your doctor?
Have u ever been curious and do u think u will teach ur children about it?
no need to comment. just to ponder upon.
i was at Burger King with Roi, Nadnad n bugsy and i was thinking of how much junkfood i've eaten this whole week, then i kinda imagined all the cholesterol and triglycerides inside me collecting which will end up making me fatter then i already am. so it got me thinking: in between the common junk food outlets there are here, what should i actually eat that doesn't go straight to my perot, and hips? so i did a little search ( after sleeping for 5 hours in broad daylight ), don't blame me, had a looooooonng week of panicking and presenting during the ward rounds. so here goes!
1. Burger King ( i love the Mushroom Swiss Burger and onion rings )
what i should eat:
the WHOPPER Jr. ( 194 calories ) or the Hamburger ( 100 calories )
2. Wendys! ( i ALWAYS eat the Chilli and Baked Potato with Brocolli and Cheese ) = 550 calories
what i should eat:
junior cheeseburger and small chilli= 440 ( still high methinks )
3. McD ( usually the fried chicken or porridge, occasionally the McEgg )= McEgg 300
what i should eat:
beef burger 250 calories
4. KFC ( snack plate! ) = 576 ( WOOW )
what i should eat:
nuggets= 230 calories
5. Subway ( steak and cheese on italian bread including all the vegetables and bbq sauce ) = 245 calories
what i should eat:
the Turkey breast with grain wheat bread= 237 ( not much difference tho )
in conclusion, i was freaking suprised when i opened all the nutritional guidelines for these fast food outlets. the moral of the story, the healthiest so far is subway, the worst is KFC. thus if i am gonna eat fast food, i'll ensure i miss my dinner~!
today for the first time in my life, i'm being pressured to get married by my mom.
aiyoooooooooooooooooooooo
did u know
i take the time for u
that i'd see u thru
that i would play the part
i must have made it clear from the start.
i know i'm right where i belong.
p/s: u shouldn't have said it, coz i will remember the exact words u said about not using it forever
suprised bugsy, hopefully made him happy :)
erm he terbalekkn da chocolate cake meant for alin ( see, i handle cakes better ) and apparently loves the tumbler i gave him for his nescafe, clever me for buying it and a load of thanks to faradiana for giving me an idea :) hehe i do think i am kinda behaving like a blissful over the clouds girl this week
i've been having this backache and i found a lump at my right lower back, it gives a dull pain, more irritating and has no radiation. 5/10 and is the pain is getting more progressive bt the lump is not getting bigger. ntah, am not that worried plus i don't have time to check it. looked up on the internet ( i know as a medical student i should know better ) and found out that it's relatively common! some of the causes are as follows:
1. muscle spasm
2. soft tissue inflammation
3. abcess
4. herniated tissue
so all this kinda reassures me, will ask for an explaination from prof Khai and will take care of my posture from now on! looks like it's time to start pilates again!
i had a great time with them today..
0000hours
my family came into the living room with a hazelnut cake which was so delicious!! i was so tired bt happy at that time and we ate the nice cake! poor bugsys phone call was rejected coz we were busy singing the birthday song :)
1500hours
me, bugsy, wny, dino ( refer to past entry ), hana, anuu, munan, ejanne, fahmi, jama, and azmil all went to fullhouse, ara damansara to have our lunch. we were introduced to dino and saw how he is really smitten with wny and it was a really nice time we had together laughing and showing our crazy selves to our other halves. had oreo cheesecake! after mengidam for ages and not telling anybody ( they read my mind! ) i totally had a nice time
new words to fathom:
mount kinaBULU, fatty crab, and the unique ways of pronouncing our names
2000hours
had dinner with bugsys family at their house, make a date with aziera to watch eclipse next sunday with nadiah
2130hours
after waiting for so long smpai tak ingt bile, officially became bugsys inferior or superior other half :) i now have an anniversary and a wedding date apparently :) but shhhhhh am not telling anybody, its not in the near future anyway..
i have this problem with trusting people, i had it since i was in school. and boys in general have let me down as the years go by. i play the deny game though i like that person, when someone falls for me, i break their heart and i make them suffer. i realized that at the end of the day, my heart gets hurt in return, not theirs. as boys, they move on.
the worse boy that broke my heart was the one who i played hard to get for two years, had my heart for a yr and a half and broke it later. so, wt i have been telling myself over the years was true. that men are bastards. i have heard and seen so many things happen, that i lost faith. that i became destructive later.
pause that, enter this dude. i never thought of him more than a friend, although a close one since we started med school. when we were in 3rd year, we wound up in the same group. i had never met sumone who could read my mind and make me laugh so much. with my fantastic group, it was a brilliant year. i don't know when it started, when i began to like him. in our 4th year, he went through a saddening phase, it changed him thus effecting me too. i was always insecure, i didn't trust him especially since we were not a couple ( and still aren't ). over the years, he has matured into this wise person who is strong on his priorities, puts up with my silliness and is calm towards the many episodes i state that i don't think we would survive.
so recently, after 4 years plus i met the one who broke my heart so bad i carry this scar. when i was about to meet him, i was so scared i was not sure how to act. this was the person i cared about so much bt broke my heart. however, the dude came and helped me face my fear eventhough he had to drive two hours to and fro alone. he specified a very logical explanation to me, that if i really did think of him as i did, i wouldn't be scared to see my ex coz i would be confident that nothing would come between us.
i realized that it's correct. if i really trusted myself, i would not have been scared to see my ex. however it turned out allright. thus after 4 years, i have found the person who made me believe in the opposite sex again, the person who deals with my insecurity wisely and though i still don't know what his plan for us is, i trust him to make the best choice for the both of us.
this is my testimony i guess for all the denial phrases that have come out from my mouth :)
my classes will be from dawn to dusk everyday, saturday until 1pm plus plus and sunday to cover for the ward rounds.
that very special person: edahayati!
just thought of putting all my sisters in this post ( d-tandoor ) 
the joy of 3rd year Internal Medicine 
before i start studying for today..let me post up my favourite pics during jamas wedding :)
