happy new year!

let's all welcome 2010!!

and my new years resolutions include:

1. to be more patient with my parents and friends
2. to save money
3. to go on a trip overseas
4. to do my best in EBM n prove arar wrong!
5. to get married
6. to lose weight. seriously.
7. to study more, but smartly


realistic goals? hurm..

will be spending new years in secret. :)

arar

so today i faced my biggest fear. arar.

the tbl finished at 4.39 i practically sped to cyberjaya and saw him. so it has been decided: my 'shortsem' will be:

17th may-4th june ( cuty 4th year )
2nd august-9th august ( cuty 5th year )

he had words to say.shall nt write em here.too scary.

other than that,spent the day with dr. hairel. i so need to study.

thank u bugs again. u are my angel.

p/s: dah ade mentos rainbow!! i love it!!

the hair and motivation~

i think KK workers need more motivation to keep 'em going efficiently with their jobs.

i want that hair. LOL

merry christmas!

HOHOHOHO merry christmas everyone! [ i feel like my tummy is gonna end up like Santa's one day ]

well, i spent christmas in Singapore with my family! went to JB wednesday nyte [ tq bugs for sending me n papa for the bus fare money ], we all crossed singapore at 12.00 christmas day. the reason why singapore was the choice of venue? singapore is very famous for the christmas lights decoration they take pains to put on every year. PREETTTYY.. so we went to orchard road and they were a sight for sore eyes. what kept going in my head was how much do they cost and where do they keep 'em after christmas?
after that we went to eat an open aired eatery where there was a vast variety of food!!

but NO it does not stop there~

yesterday night we had a big family dinner at victoria station [ papas side ] was not willing to eat steak at first but then even mama who does not eat much ordered a steak, i had to give in!
and guess what! aunty ina told us that she is cooking turkey for us on the 16th of January~

when will i have the chance to get a flat tummy~

while i was walking around Bangsar Village with Meena on Monday we found an array of gingerbread houses decorated by various kids. they are so creative, some of them made fences and windows. refer to the pic below~


p/s: how do u know if a guy is playing you? no pun intended~

10 firsts of 2009

since we are going to end this year in a couplle of days, i guess i'd list down my firsts this year:

in 2009, i:

1. traveled abroad alone

2. gave a speech at an international conference

3. went to a pub

4. went to the emirates stadium

5. cooked lauk melayu! [ achievement! ]

6. traveled to three countries in two months

7. ate a cooked meal a guy made me

8. stayed in the UK alone for a month

9. defied a Prof known for his strictness

10. went on a Dessert Safari, smoked shisha and bellydanced!

and the list will go on later for the next chapter~ including the secrets that i have stay tuned ya'all!

tired

our tbl on obesity today finished at 730 pm bebe..it was tiring, i dun feel well but we got a GOOD from Dr Izzati n Dr. Hairil so yeay :)

p/s: bsok exam!

usrah

we had usrah at the dpp house today, it was a potluck and it went very well i think; list of food bought:

meera and nawal and haz and syak: strawberry jam cheesecake [ DIVINE ]
hanum: red apples [ yum ]
alin: lychee and rose soy milk [ teguk2 ]
fara and nuna: egg sandwiches
yana: dunkin donuts [ variety! ]

i dunno, might seem that the food was not much. but i felt kenyang. must be the laughter and joy having great people at your home.

berenang lagie

again with the swimming!
since the reason why i started swimming again was because my hips don't lie and i was developing this handle that i do not love. then today i realized, wait~what benefits do each stroke offer? as i have SPECIFIC sites on my body that need immediate fat demolishing, i decided to look up on it and find the best one~ found this:

Breast stroke:

Breaststroke can improve the mobility of many joints

strengthens and tones the quadriceps at the front of the legs and the ham-strings at the back. as despite being the slowest sroke, it burns the most calories.

particularly calming and meditative

Backstroke

benefits postural awareness.

Backstroke strengthens the back, tones the legs and arms without putting strain on the spine, and increases hip and shoulder mobility.

Freestyle

It strengthens the back, tones the arms and legs, increases the mobility of the shoulders and hips as well as improving cardiovascular fitness.

There is evidence that the alternating action of the left and right side of the body balances the opposite hemispheres of the brain.

Butterfly

both energizing and calming. It mobilizes the spine, benefiting those with a stiff or tense back.

People suffering from sciatica and other lower back conditions have experienced relief

The stroke helps to tone the arms and legs, and the wide overarm recovery broadens the back.

so girls, choose the ones best for you ekh? btw, the amount of calories we lose is---------- 500-650 an hour! so come on babes let's swim!!

references:http://www.artofswimming.com/page.aspx?p=stbwe, http://www.medicinenet.com/swimming/page4.htm#benefits

love happens

while i still adore this movie, let's learn new words.. :)


quidnunc!

poppysmic!

sesquipedalian!

yup, these are valid english words people..look 'em up!


and hey, love happens rite? who are we to stop it?

jamu anyone?

our tbl today was about antenatal and postnatal care, and while bin was presenting about postnatal care it occurred to me that today the JM at KK Dengkil told me and babe that jamu is not good for breastfeeding mothers whose children have neonatal jaundice. when asked why, she only said that jamu causes the body to become 'panas' and it's not good for the baby. having said that, i was obviously not convinced. evntho jamu is a familiar word, i have never come across it or talked about it, i bought it up during the tbl. we shared loads of info, but then it still wasn't clear to me.

so i decided to do a little reading of myself..wuhoo!

JAMU INGREDIENTS

Common Spices
Cinnamon, nutmeg, aniseed, cloves, black pepper, cardamom, cumin, caraway seeds and others
Common Roots & Herbs
Ginger, Turmeric, wild ginger, white turmeric, boesenbergia rotunda, awaupuhi, and many others exotic roots and herbs
Common Fruits
Tamarind, Orange, Kalamasi, Lemon, papaya, banana, starfruits, and other exotic fruits
Common Sweetener
Palm sap, agave, and honey
Common Vitamins and Minerals
Calcium, Magnesium, iron, Vitamin B6, and many others.

reference: http://jamu4life.com/FACTS_ABOUT_JAMU.html



there's a whole blog on jamu as well! wow~while some brands have steroids on 'em, some are homemade. i asked mama if she used jamu and she said that an arwah nenek used to make homemade jamu for her.
one of the climbers who tried to scale mount everest, Asyran Roef Amran also bought jamu to keep his body warm

after reading some of the so-called benefits i was astonished on how no research has been done. the closest to one that i found was by a botanist in 1775, thus there is not enough evidence to say whether jamu is of benefit or not~
there's evn a jamu massage and a jamu stick!

p/s: tikah told me to put more pics in the blog to make it more interesting..yes, ma'am!! i wonder what made me so interested in jamu in the first place?titibe ber TCM pulak~

post-swim

hhhhaaaaaaaaaaaapppppppppppppppppppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~

and the weekend continues with bringing me joy!

today: swam ngn kanak2 riang with the names of bashirah, nawal, nadiah, and zayd. nothing like burning em calories and eating egg sandwich afterwards :) xoxo

spegetti farm

while papa is watching Kungfu panda~

other than that, i had one of the best days of this year!! watched Love Happens, highly recommended, loads of emphasize on empathy and a good storyline. had fun laughin, fun kacauing and dikacau, and eventhough i didn't have breakfast and had a late lunch i was really happy the whole time~

you might ask y, simply because i had great company!

huhu though it was only one person, this person made me laugh the whole time, laughed at my jokes, and still can read my mind.

after the movie, had late lunch at spaghetti farm where we ate the value meal spaghetti, soup and soft drinks. the food was reasonably priced, but u get fed up after eating the spaghetti coz there's too much butter in 'em. the soup was a little too diluted, though still satisfying.
the highlight of my day, i at a scoop of

SWENSONS ICE-CREAM!!

the best ice-cream of the world that i can vouch for! i was introduced to swensons when i was a wee bairn and i really love the flavours. so imagine my joy when i got a scoop!! argh!!
though at the end of the day, as usual we had the talk about the risk we are taking and an interesting part of the conversation was the analogy of why anes talk to the patients, in short it was that if u know you are taking a risk= prepare for it.
i'm sorry, i know we are taking a risk but how do i deal with it if i am confident in u but i am not sure that u are confident in me? how do i deal with this gut feeling that you are the best for me yet i feel that you don't feel the same way?
and lastly, do u have any doubts in me?
well, as somebody said to me, be patient..and i will, for the first time i will.

plans

i am a planner. i believe we should plan so that we have a goal to reach~
i started planning since i was in secondary school. the plan was:

to get 10 A1s
to go overseas for my undergrad studies
to become a dr
to open up a hospital with my friends
to marry my first boy friend
to be committed with NGOs

needless to say, the first two nvr came true. we may plan, but Allah is there to decide what is best for us.
so here goes, the new plans that insyaAllah will happen, i hope.
the plans make u want to achieve them, a part of my motivation;

to graduate as a doctor on time, may 2011
to do my housemanship at sultanah aminah, jb
to become a peads/general surgeon @ emergency med specialist
to continue with my postgrad in newcastle
to sponsor nadiah and zayds pocket money in university
to bring someone there with me and learn together
to build a family and a partnership with my husband
to enter the private practice in order to save money
to actively participate in MERCY malaysia
to live in a house near a surau/masjid
to become a lecturer at CUCMS

i wrote this post just in case i forget all this and need to refer huhu these goals night change tho, so i can give no guarantee..but inyaAllah, they will all come true

the perfect figure

today hannan khairil anwar wishes:

1. she has the perfect figure

2. her metabolism was like it was

3. she understood why boys become so emotional when they play football

4. tommorow the girls will swim with her again

the best take home message for today came from azrul: when u clerk a patient ask them:

and how do u want to tackle this problem?

when the patient thinks of a way, they realize it is important and they set their own goals. we shouldn't bombard them with suggestions when they do not actually want to hear or act. let them take control of their lives,while we observe and follow their pace.

watched blue versus yellow, think the referee was crappy, we lost 5-1. ish.

swim!

bliss~
had so much FUN swimming with the girls at Pullman just now.
love-handle reducing, entertaining, fat defying fun~

those who were there included:

nanad: cute with her pink goggles
amal: who has the ability to thread underwater for 10 minutes
di: who swam NON-STOP ( have no idea how many laps she did )
zarra: who was also like di ( dah kurus laa!! )
haz: who undeniably was an angel teaching aisyah how to swim
aisyah: diligently learning how to swim
alin: attentively teaching the other girls how to swim
farah: meticulously swimming non-stop
ima': splashing never looked so pleasurable
meera: owh-so relaxed in the pool
afeera: her laughter is contagious!
iman: her strokes are so damn effortless

gah, i hope i got everyone~would like it so much if the other girls were also there and that we make it a routine..
i heart my girls~

day 5 family med

very interesting day in class today with this take home message:

' understand before you seek to be understood'

by Dr. Norlehan qouted by someone i am not sure of. the verdict of my first percepting:

1. i talk too fast
2. i am too dominating to the patient
3. i have the self-confidence
4. i have to REVISE my BM
sigh~ huhu but shall be better in the future i promise!

lunch was infested with flies at the Ridz Cafe, watched Blue versus Green house ( 1-0 ) went coz did not want to sleep at home. and had dinner with bugsy at Dengkil!
have decided to stock food for ourselves at KK Dengkil coz we are always hungry there, i feel such joy clerking peads patients even when they cry. though i had to clerk and examine an antenatal patient ( spluttered and gagaped the whole way ) tak ingat how to!
i so have to study~

p/s: tak paham family med still balek lgie awl from ortho..but tommorow, no way!

me and hope

If you lose hope, somehow you lose the vitality that keeps life moving, you lose that courage to be, that quality that helps you go on in spite of it all. And so today I still have a dream.
-marthin luther king jr.

farsi lessons

words of the day~



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family

for my future reference and current wives/husbands/mothers/fathers taken from my 2nd Assigned Individual Reading tasks, General Practice Murtagh Second Edition

General Practice, Chapter 2Characteristics of healthy families

• Healthy communication. In this situation family members have freedom of expression for their feelings and emotions.
• Personal autonomy. This includes appropriate use of power sharing between spouses.
• Flexibility. This leads to appropriate 'give and take' with adaptation to individual needs and changing circumstances.
• Appreciation. This involves encouragement and praise so that members develop a healthy sense of self-esteem.
• Support networks. Adequate support from within and without the family engenders security, resistance to stress and a healthy environment in general. The family doctor is part of this network.
• Family time and involvement. Studies have shown that the most satisfying hallmark of a happy family is 'doing things together'.
• Spouse bonding. The importance of a sound marital relationship becomes obvious when family therapy is undertaken.
• Growth. There needs to be appropriate opportunities for growth of individual family members in an encouraging atmosphere.
• Spiritual and religious values. An attachment to spiritual beliefs and values is known to be associated with positive family health, supporting the saying 'The family that prays together stays together'

General Practice, Chapter 2Positive guidelines for success in marriage counseling

1. Know yourself. The better you know yourself, the better you will know your mate. Learn about sex and reproduction.
2. Share interests and goals. Do not become too independent of each other. Develop mutual friends, interests and hobbies. Tell your partner 'I love you' regularly at the right moments.
3. Continue courtship after marriage. Spouses should continue to court and desire each other. Going out regularly for romantic evenings and giving unexpected gifts (such as flowers) are ways to help this love relationship. Engage in some high-energy fun activities such as massaging and dancing.
4. Make love, not war. A good sexual relationship can take years to develop; so work at making it better. Explore the techniques of lovemaking without feeling shy or inhibited. This can be helped by books such as The Joy of Sex and videos on lovemaking. Good grooming and a clean body are important.
5. Cherish your mate. Be proud of each other, not competitive or ambitious at the other's expense. Talk kindly about your spouse to others—do not put him or her down.
6. Prepare yourself for parenthood. Plan your family wisely and learn about child bearing and rearing. Learn about family-planning methods and avoid the anxieties of an unplanned pregnancy. The best environment for a child is a happy marriage.
7. Seek proper help when necessary. If difficulties arise and are causing problems, seek help. Your general practitioner will be able to help. Stress-related problems and depression in particular can be lethal in a marriage— they must be 'nipped in the bud'.
8. Do unto your mate as you would have your mate do unto you. This gets back to the unconscious childhood needs. Be aware of each other's feelings and be sensitive to each other's needs. Any marriage based on this rule has an excellent chance of success.

family medicine phew wit!

glucometer ( poor fingers bein pricked )

day 1: excitement!

reasons:

1. too much of herbalife tea in the morning

2. dapat famous amos and panda cookies in the morning!

3. interesting classes

the nicest surprise :)

started the day with cereal! in family medicine you HAVE to be punctual really or else u'll get a red mark on your logbook. mixed feelings today, sad to leave the relaxed life of ortho but looking forward to busy days. intro on FMS, dr azizah was true to what others described her to be, passionate with her work.
my first impression on dr hairel anuar ( name like papa ) is that he is a perfectionist. army styled hair, crisp shirt and shiny shoes, about 30 plus. dr norlehan is FUN! she conducted the lecture on the pillars in FMS and it was interactive. the first thing dr. siti told me when i entered class was:

'it is my personal aim to makesure u do not want to leave FMS by the end of the 8th week"

that's a wee bit scary, but who knew that nasal sprays, MDIs and peak flows would be interesting? a very simple yet educational CST with teaching on the proper way to explain patients when doing minute procedures. simple, yet important for thier well being.
all in all, a LOT of reading to do but a very good start i might say!

p/s: first day of official diet and saving money project. doing allright, set a deal with Tikah to join in too~

Paris

yesterday u told me u want to bring me to Paris.
insyallah, ameen~

life

who said life is gonna be easy?
who said life is gonna be fair?

in truth, we need to be patient,
through all the bull in the world
to all the words that make us cry
and the proud silence that follows after

yes life is not easy
yes life is not fair
but will u say goodbye to life?
NEVER~
p/s: emo much mama made me cry today~

ortho final exam

meena was so scared she couldn't sit anymore

it started out with me waking up early to finish what i haven't studied yet and it ended up with me thinking hell i shouldn't have stayed up at all last nite or studied ortho!

let me enlighten u..

so i was the first person to be examined by Dr. Radhii ( the traumatologist who loves spinal surgery ) and i happened to get a case of cellulitis. the problem was this patient has DM, HPT and hypercholesterolenemia and history of infected bypass. i had so many things to ask but i dodn't have the time until he asked me to stop as i was about to enter the family history. so i already felt that i would fail. then for the physical examination he asked me to just do inspection.
the questions i got during the discussion were from BASIC medicine.

1. what happens during inflammation? what are the cell mediators and what does each of em do?

2. what is the first sign of nephropathy and connect it with bilateral leg swelling

3. what is SIRS ( systemic inflammation response syndrome and explain the pathophy?

4. what will u do if this patient comes to u at AnE?

5. what can we see at the x-ray and what antibiotics do we give?

so those are just the examples of the questions i unfortunately had to answer. scary! managed to crawl my way through with much difficulty. i can say this is not a gud way to start 4th year.

happy faces of wani and me after the OSCE

other than that, he was really nice and i can say for the future ortho students, he is unpredictable. he will just choose anyone.

ridu trying to look relaxed padahal cuak while aamir studies last minute

p/s: quote of the day after crying my heart out watching 'the notebook': it's not gonna be easy, it's gonna be hard and we're gonna have to work it out but i wanna do that.. *sob sob~sniff**

one after the other

saye nk finals.

bugsy nye bag containing his lappy and stetoscope amongst other stuff was stolen. it was in Haz's car which was broken into. Randalls bag was also stolen. cian die..another hurdle for him to go through. sape laa yg curi tue..

10 things.

10 things u might know bout me:

1. i prefer roses tied with a ribbon rather than a bouquet
2. sometimes i feel unappreciated
3. i always wanna shop alone
4. the most hypocritical people i have ever met are at my university
5. i will NEVER marry someone who does not support my goals
6. i want to take a pilots license
7. i take revenge when the people i love make me suffer
8. i get bored easily but i hold back that feeling until the end
9. when i am stressed i go home
10. i think this post is a little too depressing :)

chanel no 5

nothing to report today, nothing interesting except that our house punye modem terbakar so there's no internet at the house in DPP.

would like to highlight the new advertisement for Chanel no 5 tho atarring audrey tautou. it's so classy, so sexy, so freaking french.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p-ngh-9eeMo

me likey very much!

p/s: cmne kite nk rajen? the exams are only a week away!

hemi-thyroidectomy

saye syg housemates saye!!

p/s: not having second thoughts :)

so i am bloody tired, did a presentation bout Young Mercy will be presenting at the International Humanitarian Conference this thursday. went to an-nur to present to to prof ikram, ended up assisting in a hemi-thyroidectomy until 9pm. anuar intubated and assisted prof ikram. dr razale taught us step by step bout how to do a hemi-thyroidectomy. really cool.

i feel i am destined to become a surgeon, Insyallah.



bash n zayd made awesome ayam masak paprik today. coolness!

suprise

i didn't think he would take me being angry with him seriously.
funny how when u feel u can't take it anymore that they come back to u.
i guess i do mean something to him.
he sure means something to me.
one year ekh?

what a day

sorry been out of contact, no internet in terendak and the battery for my handphone has been caput for two days. so a summary of terendak~

day2: clinic day first time met a person using a prosthetic limb ( he had a crushing injury 15 yrs ago ) so was fascinated. asam pedas melaka sgt sdap at sawit, but went tp pakcik dahans house and had SELEMBU ( seladang and lembu ). cried to sleep, first time i cried coz of u. met dr. rosman but dun minat him anymore.

day3: OT day: ACL reconstruction ( semitendonosis tendon ) and meniscus tear, arthoroscopy. lunch at pangkalan balak again and dinner at seri restaurant after playing futsal with the juniors and psychiatry students ( scored 4 goals in two games ). discovered Lachmans test is hard to do evn on kurus guys.

day 4: OT day: ACL resonstruction ( hamstring tendon ), wanted to watch a bone-tendon-bone but thin sgt, lunch at sawit ( rojak ayam sgt best ) and went to melaka town to eat dinner and jalan2 to jonker ( was closed ) and found that the parks were full of cute lighted animals. loads of fun. heard that some people xcukup elective credit hours, not me tho. phone habis battery.

day 5: last day. OT: crush injury ( open fracture of first phalanx ), lecture on blast injuries and mangled limbs. lunch at asam pedas sepang, went to seremban police station to see afeera and iman yg accident ( emergency break kereta afeera hit car infront ), back to dpp. slept a lot in the car.

currently: waiting for bugsy to take me home, sleepy.

another step in life

well i have great news!

this afternoon, kak yang gave birth to a healthy baby boy after just 3 hours labour! when she reached an-nur she was already 5cm dilated beb..so it was a normal SVD and both mum n son are healthy.

so, since one of us has taken the next step. when are the others gonna? huhu

other than that, i'm back in TERENDAK!! back to the sleepy resort rooms and great food! met Dr. Fuad today the one and only ortho. we had a gud start since the day started with a group breakfast at the usual place in front of the junction to the terendak camp [ i swear i'm gonna eat anything i want in malacca the food is so good ] then we had a briefing and straight away clerked the patients. there are loads actually in comparison to IM dulu. we have two patients each and tommorow we'll start presenting! wuhoo!
the cases are also quite interesting, a lot of sports injuries like meniscal and ligament tears but we also have cellulitis and OA cases as well. and the patients here are superbly nice.

but the best thing is that now we are in fourth year and have adapted to clinical life, we find it no problem to present esp. at terendak. the first thing we actually did when we arrived was to introduce ourselves to the staff and went to clerk so i think we really did have a good start. plus we went to the OT to watch a CMR on a 5 yr old boy who obtained a supracondylar fracture. all this while we have been watching CMRs done but we really did not know how to do it and what to look for while doing it so today we learned.

THE FOOD!! so what we did was go to pangkalan balak today for lunch [ 7 org share ABC! ] and then we went to Sawah restaurant for dinner [ the one with the green nasi goreng ] i can't wait for the goreng pisang and rojak for tommorow. we are going to Sawit pulak!

p/s: the downsides today are that i didn't see Dr. Rosman and the internet here kinda sucks

my prayers

dear Allah,

let what I did today was for the best. and please not let me have any doubts. teach me that patience is a virtue and permit me to let go of the ghosts of my past. here in my mind, let me trust and believe in this. and if we change, let it be mutual and towards the same goal. hear my prayer, as i am never sure bout the decisions i make but i need this. thank you.

let's be healthy

the accumulation of lactic acid in my calves and arms [ the after effect of swimming two days in a row ] has forced me to sleep early tonight.

p/s: RM2 je for a swim, tues n thurs are ladies only sessions. location: pusat rekreasi air putrajaya near pullman lakeside~

idiotic men

my housemates told me bout a 'panggilan hangat' for hot fm from a husband that wanted to ask his wife about poligamy. what the poor hot fm djs did not know was that this particular husband had REAL plans to marry another lady. so the djs called up this lady and the lady was polite but at the verge of tears. she did not agree to the idea of her husband marrying another but knew that her husband was already planning to. she asked the dj why her husband was not brave enough to talk to her face to face. not knowing that she was on air nation wide. at the end, the dj told her that it was a panggilan hangat and she put down the phone.

HOW IDIOTIC CAN A MAN BE?

firstly, i'll be brave enough to say that most malaysian men get married to a second wife purely because of lust. yes, i have met some of my friends parents that have obtained a second wife and treat them fairly, but those i can count. what about the countless first wives who have to endure the words ' sunnah nabi ' when they are not responsible enough to even take care of one wife? bull.

secondly, why go on national radio to actually ask? pure and simple: he is a coward. these men who cannot even have the guts to ask for permission and actually risk of having the poor wife humiliated. these kind of men are not leaders, they obviously do not respect women.

i'm not saying that all men are like this, but come on..how many times have we heard the stories? to all future husbands and husbands. think before u act.

you

hey..hang in there
stay strong and have faith
i'm always there beside you
me and my family are praying..

spine surgery

cervical x-ray [ lateral ]

had a lecture with dr radhii again today [ build rapport with him and he will tell u loads of interesting stories. his lecture was on spinal trauma and it was suberb! did not even feel sleepy for once [ but that could have been the herbalife ]. we learned the approach to a patient with a suspected neck injury but at the end of the lecture it suddenly turned into a surgical approach of the patient pulak with our never ending questions.

spine surgeons have to have really balanced hands since they are doing microscopic examinations and handle nerves as well. so kalau i become one, it's a very sound alasan to say that i cannot miss my meals :)
the idea of working in trauma cases has always been an appeal to be besides peadiatric surgery and i once asked dr radhii is it ok for me to pursue emergency medicine since i am a very kalot person?

he said: ' kalot tak ape, tapi kene kalot systematic. '
nuna: ' hurm.... cmne laa kalot systematic...'

so back to spine surgery, thier approach is soo cool in the sense that they can even do open mouth surgery where the ENT surgeons open up the muscles at the back of the mouth and the surgeons take it from there since we have better access of the C1 and C2 there.

open mouth x-ray

so though it might be dangerous and risky, imagine the adrenaline rush and excitement u'd get everytime u want to do a surgery!! wargh!! [ suke suke suke ]

x-ray pics: http://handbook.muh.ie/X-Rays/Images/XR_CSpineLatLabelled.jpg

my yayi

the smile lines and wrinkles on your face
remind me of hardship and happiness
of our talk and your guidance
of all the laughter and hugs
you said to me today
that u hope to live to the day
i graduate
today u gave me sound advice
of which i will make a reality
tho at the end it is all Allahs will

his honest eyes of love
who whispered and sang to me
as he held me in his arms
when i was a baby
and he a proud grandfather
in what we call the circle of life

i want u to hold my first child
later in life
i want u to be at my graduation ceremony
so that i can proudly say
this is the man who taught me BM
this is the man who hugs me when i meet him
this is the man who i hold my greatest respect
this is the man who is proud to be javanese

and this is the man i call
my yayi

dominos

funny how our lives revolve around food most of the time.

so we had lunch at dominos together and 'makan besar', there were 9 of us and i realized that i have spent a lot of money on food this week.

but i would have to say the best thing about today is the fact that leeches and maggots are used as a form of treatment. we had a lecture on the introduction of Traditional, Complementary and Alternative medicine today and i have to say i didn't think that learning about maggots and leeches would be interesting.here i'll give u guys an intro:

LEECHES

the usage of leeches for treatment has been used since egyptian times and was really popular back then, followed by the greek. however, it really got popular starting from the 80's by calling it hidurotherapy. some of the cool facts of leeches are that:

1. local anesthetic
2. anticoagulant
3. initiates local venous circulation

there u go,
[ tolong hannan jgn jdik NERD ]

gonna stop now.

secret recipe

from left: zeze, hanum, wani, meera, atikah, ama, nuna

goes to show u can study at Secret Recipe! we have an exam tomorrow! cuakis~

never underestimate dr khai.
what he did today was to take all the logbooks and call ' the chosen ones' to look at their learning objectives u write down for each person u see..and then what he did was to ask questions based on the learning objectives.
so kire nye if u couldn't answer it's obvious to him n u dat u didn't read 'em kn?

it was like a bloody viva!!
thank god i didn't get chosen * phew * but tomorrow he's gonna choose two more people..scary!!!!

faradiana made fettuccine carbonara from scratch..CLAP CLAP!! will take pics later yum yum

yesterday's joke?

dr wan hazmy: how come immobilized patients do not have bowel opening for long periods of time while they are lying down?

nuna: gravity???

p/s: correct answer: slow peristalsis
xtau nape smue org gelak wit my answer :(

chaks !

check out this lampu! came across it when i was at relax restaurant [ introduced by naj ], went with my housemates.

it has the shape of a hot air balloon! someone drew rainbows on it but due to the camera megapixel, the pretty rainbows can't be seen.
i think the frame was just made out of lidi penyapu and the shape by crepe paper.

thank u nanad for takin the pic!

best mother ever

my mom wants to bring me to watch beyonce with her!!! i have the best mom ever!
but then, hurm cm mane yek nk jump all about with my mom? :)

p/s: have u ever minat a person by second look? i received one of the most sincere smiles that went to the heart straight away from a doctor that was at putrajaya with us.. suke suke suke!! wargh!! no hannan jgn minat org!!

dear baju kurung wearer

of promises made today
the silence of the room broken with our laughter
of sorrys and thank yous
you are different
of being late with no regrets
i wish this wasn't the last time
but i won't tell u
ur eyes are my mirrors
though words can hide the truth
hey, i trust u. this is right

burst tyre

there are nice people in the world!
there we were laughin on the way back from paans open house when we heard a loud 'BANG' and the car suddenly felt heavy. i was like laughing while i said' i burst my tyre didn't i ' and we stopped by the side. the first thought i had was to call my mom so i did, haha she was shocked but she asked me to call the boys. and so i tried calling azrul and banjo but they didn't pick up. in the end i called sys and yeay he picked up the phone! they were all playin badminton and we asked them to come if they could.

while we were waiting [ and they were spinning around looking for us ]
a light blue wira stopped infront of us and a bald, black wearing, cigarette smoking 30's guy came out. and he HELPED US!! he looked at the tyre and said 'owh nie senang nie' and he went straight to work! the spare tyre was so berhabok haha while he changed the tyre we asked him to teach us as well. and he did plus a few skills!!

the best is yet to come!!

so in 10 minutes i had a good tyre and sys with ira came but we asked them to go back. we were waiting for him to name the price but he actually just went of after giving him his card!!



HE DIDN'T ASK FOR ANYTHING!!!!!

i am so thankful and i definitely wanna promote his workshop after this. may Allah bless him with here as well as the hereafter :)

light my path

there are so many different personalities in the world, each with their own unique dreams. i was born into a world that told me if i didn't study and do my best, get straight A's that i wouldn't achieve my dreams and be contented. that excellence is a good job, a good salary and making everyone proud.

but i soon realize that that is not 100% true.

there was a time when i worked a border's and the people i mingled with weren't the one's who excelled in school, they were street smart people who knew what they wanted. most of them only had SPM qualifications but they work hard. they might not have high earning jobs, but they make an honest living. which i think is enough.
today, we were talkin bout how most billionaire's such as Bill Gates, Micheal Dell and Ralph Lauren were college dropouts. these people who i am sure were looked down once upon a time since they were not from Harvard or Cambridge, now earn more than most if us do. if you put someone who was educated, who went to the best schools against one of them, there's a high possibility that the street smart can beat them. they live to survive while we stand so proud behind our great institutions.

my point is, it doesn't matter which elite school u went to, which top university u got ur degree from. at the end of the day, it's your effort, ur work and ur sweat.

500 days of summer!

thumbs up!

"Just because she's likes the same bizzaro crap you do doesn't mean she's your soul mate."


"You weren't wrong, Tom. You were just wrong about me."


"I woke up one morning and I just knew. What I was never sure of with you. "


" So it was all coincidence "

so much about who are we to control the cosmic balance of the world of the qada' and qadar of how are lives might be. we might be in love with someone one day and totally hate him/her the next. we might promise to not do sumthin and ditch it the next day. anything can happen rite? the heartbreaks and drama that we go through in life were actually our own choices. kesimpulannye, really gud movie.

denial

let's talk bout denial shall we.
it took me a year plus to actually look behind the 'mutual understanding' and silence to realize yes i want it but no i cannot trust 100%.
funny that it came during nurkasih but i dun think noone knows.
through all the what if's and doubts which i have and will have the times that i need confrontation and uncertainty.
i guess the underling fact is that i am not sure if it's real. i trust, i believe but i am unsure.
thus i'd prefer to say i don't know rather than face the concequences of getting hurt later.

at the end of the day, as the song goes; convince me that i need this too.

but i can say though, nobody gets me like u do. nobody makes me feel like u do.
we were never meant to be, we just happended but we are inevitable and i thank god for it.

i'm holding on to the dream of u that i had in second year and for the first time everytime i do my final sujud. i actually pray for the best both ways.
u are the BM, insyallah.

in need of motivation

pic-deviantart.com

i know i should not feel like this.
but i feel like i dun have the motivation to be at my best for this posting, i dun know where the spirit i had in 3rd year went. scared, very scared that i'll go spiraling down.
sigh..
no, it ain't the fault of my lecturers. thot of blaming the lepakness of it all, but that can hardly become an excuse rite. i need to find something to make me stand up and realize ' hey u want to be better this year. nope, haven't crossed my mind yet. plus putih asyik rosak je,nyampah.
words of wisdom anyone?
ur welcome.

other than that, i have two songs that i'm repeating over and over again.

"Come home
Come home
Cause I`ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I`ve ever known
So come home

Everything i can`t be
Is everything you should be
And that`s why i need you here
So hear this now"
-one republic feat sara bareilles
-come home

so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about other pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy
-leona lewis -happy

dunno they just seem singable [ if there's such a word ] and whateva.

other than that, sent papa to the airport he's off to london and amsterdam for app two weeks [ think chocolate!! ] and am at home made popia for family.

p/s: how come people who seem to be righteously religiously educated sometimes have the loudest and bitchiest mouths of them all? just a thot.

kambing kambing

well, haven't updated the last weekend because i have been at open houses!

on friday there was the batch open house which i have to say was the effort of the dpp gurls and guys plus nabila and faiz but it was successful with the whole batch! it started the night before while some of us decorated the khemah [ shawa, fara ] and me n ki anyam ketupat while some basuh and peram the ayam [ roi, banjo, shahril and nad ] and after that we went home to make the popia and cake batik..

then the next day~
everyone was there!!! almost the whole batch came and it was FANTASTIC!! there was kambing golek from PJ Hilton, mee rebus and potato salad thanks to babe, kuih2 and we had fun..all of us became cam-whores and we ate like nobodies business. and in the end we watched nur kasih at the living room, dat time titibe i felt like getting married. :) but that is another thing, and nik, shakir, farouk, ki and banjo sang [ the night wouldn't be complete without that ]

on saturday it was time to go to open houses! went for neneks [ was supposed to go after suboh but lo behold! woke up at 10. that was the starting of the kambing! had kambing at neneks house didn't know half the people there until bugs came. was very happy that he came and he was brilliant, utterly brilliant. charmed the socks of me mom i think. well after that we went to abe's house in kemensah heights where the real fun began!! it was a beautiful house lots of teak lower floor made of stone and upper floor of teak mostly i think or cendana. the food was also as divine with kambing again and sotong kangkung and abc among the many food. then after that stopped by at ira's to solat and went to ki's house! it was fun taking all the pics and admiring everyones baju. at ki's we had nasi dagang and spaghetti and prayed maghrib there. first time tgk rayyan and he is so cute with his own bahasa. hehe

couple of points that stood out, the fact that we are so close together and it's as if now everyone goes to a function in pairs [ hint hint ]. i really like the not so new pair of my batch and a junior they do look so sweet together and i'm happy for them. i reached a decision at the batch open house. for me to know and for nobody to find out. hehe

p/s: won third for the menganyam ketupat pertandingan!! :)

leftie

ain't it cool to be a left handed??

u can eat while u write!

haha post menganyam ketupat
wait, will update the pics later :)

gud luck nadiah!

so this posting is dedicated to my 3rd sister:

NADIAH KHAIRIL ANWAR

this morning while i was sleeping on zayds bed, she woke me up at 5.50 am with these words: ' kakak hannan tak pegi skola lagie ker? '
i was about to retort that question when i looked at her worried face and realized that today would be one of the most crucial days she would remember.

her PMR.

so i asked her, nadiah ok x? and she said she didn't sleep the whole night. i understand how scary it must be for her. she has worked hard for her exams, we wanted to make a big banner for her but i guess both sisters were so tired.
what papa did was that he wrote on our family white board

let us all pray for princess nadiah to get 8as in her PMR ameen

and all of us wrote ameen in our own handwriting [ mama siap buat jawi lagie! ]
so what i'd like to say is that

you have worked so hard for the past few months
with all the sleepless nights and worried expressions
all the ' u have to get 8as ' that we have said
we accept anything u do
coz we know you did ur best

nads, make our family proud
8a's : ameen, insyaAllah

perfect

perfect

such a fantastic way of waking up

wish we could do it everyday but with me to help u

good morning sunshine

thank u for a wonderful start to my day :)

just read

this is a qoute from an article that bugs forwarded to me. it was a story bout a 21 yr old lady having terminal cancer who insisted on not cancelling her wedding plans in spite of going through hours of chemotheraphy. she had a magnificent wedding and died 5 days later. it was heart-wrenching to read the article. sweet and sad. well at the end of the article these words were written:

work as if it was your first day
forgive as soon as possible
love without boundaries
laugh without control
and never stop smiling

pledge to self; practice this :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q3BHL1pyFVY

open house hospital serdang

food food food!!!!!!!!!!!

writing this during the batch meeting, sorry batch! we had a fantastic time at hospital serdang, they had a raya open house for the hospital on the 3rd floor [ admin, audi and stuff ]. but listen here:
EVERY DEPARTMENT HAD THEIR OWN MENU

we didn't even need to go to the hospital today since we did not have anything on, but we decided to go since we haven't even attended a ward round for this week and we are kinda relaxed PLUS there was the open house. we attended the CME and hand over, but when we came out of the ward..

pergh, bau SATAY!!!!


and the fact that dr basir the HOD for ortho actually stopped people from doing the ward rounds to give the team the chance to eat before resuming. so we were kinda 'forced' to go :) i think the best was still the kambing and the mee kari, but here's some of the things we ate:

1. soto
2. kambing golek
3. cendol
4. satay
5. mee hun tomyam
6. ketupat palas and rendang
and loads more i can't remember..

tgk laa meena and vic enjoying the kelapa muda and the kambing bergolek golek king
so it was a gud gud day!
p/s: rugi laa my groupmates yg xdtg!

disasters in syawal

it's a wonder how knowing that another earthquake and tsunami has hit different parts of the world did not suprise me.
so far, there have been 569 casualties for the earthquake that hit sumatera yesterday afternoon
where else in samoa, there have been 100 casualties from the tsunami.
the death toll is rising.

i found out that one of our peadiatricians [ Dr. Khairul ] is already on the way there to volunteer. i'm not sure whether he is going under MERCY or any other NGO, but Allah protect him the whole way. if i could, i would be already on my way.

this sends me to a question that has been lingering in my mind for today. why are these natural disasters becoming more common? the number of natural disasters have increased four times more than it was a decade ago. is it one way of Allah sending us the message to stop fooling around with nature and to quit destroying mother earth? or is this some worldly payment for all the accumulative sins we've done? whichever one it is, it's scaring me to bits.
what we define as natural disasters could actually be man-made in disguise, revealed as time goes by and how much we keep destroying earths resources.

May Allah bless those whose family members and loved ones have perished and may He reward Paradise for all the victims and forgive their sins.


http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/asia-pacific/8284208.stm
http://www.thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/10/1/apworld/20091001065437&sec=apworld

blood group type A+

yeay!!! managed to donate blood for the third time evntho i was having my period!!

there was an announcement at 8.30 saying that there was gonna be a blood donation blood and we were like JOM! at first, i didn;t think i could coz i was having my period but we asked and the staff nurse said " owh kalo nk abie dh xpe ". so we went to eat, saw that Ira was already registering..went to kaco her for a bit.
fingers crossed while checking my Hb level and i passed! then the 2nd challenge the BP set,was afraid that my blood presure would be too low but yeay 118/71 mmHg so happily went to start.


four people were with me: meera, tikah, hanum and nabil but alas all four of them tak dpt nk donate, in the end..it turned out to be a photoshoot!
it was so much fun since people were looking at how jakun we were but haha we'd do anything for a laugh. i think there was quite a gud response actually from the public. hope whoever gets my blood will benefit from it,Amin.



but why are guys so afraid of donating blood?

besides that, i have decided never to become an ortho surgeon. u have to be strong and tough to be able to nail in all the screws, fixators and stuff. mr. azlan is wonderful. he has this devil-may-care attitude and owh yeay!

i presented today!! on the second day and the first patient!! alhamdulillah managed to get 7.5/10 [ quite good for a first time ] but i have soooo many things i need to improve on. i thought it was ladies luck, dun think i know the first thing when it comes to clerking an ortho patient.

class is starting at 9 tommorow [zzzzzzzzzzzzz galore ]
cheers.